From A Course of Love: Combined Volume: Part 3: 40 Days and Night with Jesus. DAY 36 Who You Are in Unity and Relationship through the first receiver, Perron, Mari. A Course of Love: Combined Volume. Take Heart Publications.

36.1 The exercise of your power is in the creation of your experience.

36.2 As an ego-self, you created an experience for yourself that was separate from all others. You made choices concerning how you would live your life from within the realm of what you considered possible. You did so continuously. This was the way in which you created your experience of a separate existence.

36.3 Your experiences in their totality you call your life. Yet you have stood apart from these experiences—all of them. You can look back on your life and see its form. You could write an autobiography describing every experience you encountered between your earliest memory and the present moment and it would say nothing about you if it related the experiences only as physical events. Your experiences may, in their totality, be called your life, but they cannot be called you. You stand apart. And yet in your choice of, and response to your experiences were you revealed, because, in this way only, were you a creator.

36.4 Powerlessness is moving through life as a being without the power to create.

36.5 You have felt like the creator of your life in the choices you have made. The experiences of consequence to you were the experiences of choice. Experiences that were “of” your choice are those that would move the story of your life along as a “personal” experience rather than as experience itself. Even experiences dictated by “fate” were of consequence only in your response after the fact. The story of your life, in short, would be a story of how you chose to respond, day-in and day-out, to the world around you. You, in short, created your life through chosen responses. You created your life through your responses to the circumstances of your birth, your opportunities or lack of opportunities, the fateful incidents that you encountered, the people you met. You started with what you believed you had been given, the self that you saw yourself to be—the self you considered immutable and unchangeable—and proceeded from there. Yet you created in response to “reality” rather than creating reality. Now you are called to create reality—a new reality.

36.6 This is where you begin again. Begin again with the Self you now know yourself to be.

36.7 When you start over, knowing that what you have been given is everything, your creatorship of your experience is a totally different exercise. You realize that your life is not you but that your life is an exercise in creatorship. Creator and creation are one. You are one in being with the power of creation and different in your relationship to and expression of that power.

36.8 Can you not see that if you can create your experience you can create a new reality—a new world? Can you not see the difference between creating as a separate self in response to a “given” set of circumstances in a “given” world and creating your experience as a creator who has realized oneness and unity—who has realized a new reality? The old reality was that of separation. The new reality is that of union. It is new only in that it has gone uncreated.

36.9 This is a true starting over with the true realization that giving and receiving are one and that both are within your power. This is starting over with the realization that you can give yourself a new set of circumstances and a new world by creating it as your experience. This is starting over with the realization that you are now the creator of your experience. You have always been creating because you have always been one in being with God who is endlessly creating. But you are only now a creator in union and relationship.

36.10 The difference here is all the difference in the world. It is the difference between all and nothing in relationship to one another. Recall the example used earlier. There is no difference between all and nothing without relationship. In relationship, the difference is everything. This same difference is what is meant when it is said that you are one in being and different in relationship. Without your awareness of unity and relationship, it was as if God was everything and you were nothing, or as if you were everything and God was nothing. But just as with all and nothing, there was no difference between your being and God’s being without relationship. You could conceive of self and God in different ways, but you could not truly create difference but only perceive of difference. You thus always remained one in being with God, yet continued to relate only to a world and to experiences you perceived as being either created by a separate God or created by your separate self. You experienced the power of being because you were a being who existed, but you did not experience being powerful.

36.11 There is only difference between your being and God in relationship. This is the example that the ideas of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit as a trinity representing one God were meant to portray. The Son could only be God in relationship to God. The Holy Spirit could only be God in relationship to God. The Father could only be God in relationship to God. God could only be the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit in relationship. Without relationship, God is simply all—being. Without relationship, what is not God is simply being—simply existing at the opposite end of the continuum of everything that is creation.

36.12 What we have called illusion is this simple nothingness of existence without relationship to God, and thus existence without relationship to the power of creation. The illusion is an illusion of simply being. Is this not how you have seen yourself? As a simple being doing your best to live the life you’ve been given? All the choices in the world save this one before you now, have made no difference to your state of being. You have just kept being, kept making choices between one illusion and another in your separate reality. A separate reality that cannot exist in truth but only in illusion.

36.13 Despite all of this, you have always had some remembrance of yourself as a creator. Despite all of this, you have loved and feared, grown and evolved, made choices of integrity and courage, responded with nobility or doubt, boldness or timidity, all within a frame of thought and feeling that has felt completely real to you and is completely real to the separate being you have been being.

36.14 Because you have always been one in being with God, this power—this power of being—has always been yours. The power to feel—love, hate, anger, compassion, greed, humility, and longing—has always been yours. The power to think—rationally or passionately, logically or instinctively—has always been yours. The power to create—everything from weapons of mass destruction to cathedrals of towering majesty—has always been yours. The power to know or perceive—even an unreal reality—has always been yours.

36.15 To be a being of feeling, thought, creativity and knowing or perception is to be one in being with God. Accept this, for this is what God is and what you are. This is being. To be one in being with God and yet to exist outside of the powerful state of relationship and union has been a challenging choice. A god-like choice. A choice for a new kind of experience that has led to the creation of an unreal reality so populated by the god-like and the god-less, so near to replacing creation with destruction, so joyous and loving, and so hate- and pain-filled, that you have been moved to a new choice.

36.16 When you realize that you are one in being with God and different in relationship you accept the power of being, or individuating God. You accept the power of God. You become powerful.

36.17 God remains God who is one in being with all, and God also is given form, or is, in other words, differentiated. God is All in All. And God is also All in One and All in Many. God is still the Creator of All, but God is also now the Creator of One, the Creator of the experience of one life, or many lives, the experience and the experiencer of life. Through differentiation, God is you as you are God. God retains oneness of being and also becomes a being in union and relationship—in short—a being in union and relationship with you.

Perron, Mari. A Course of Love: Combined Volume (pp. 549-551). Take Heart Publications. Kindle Edition.